opening my heart

i decided to make a separate blog for my "emo" moments.i am an active multiply member,updating the blogs,every now and then,well,shopping,family affairs,work,etc.so i don't want this site(multiply) to meddle with my emotional hang-ups.whatever i might want to call it.

it's been 4 months.many things happened,but still i wanna call my life as a boring one still,nothing has changed.oh,though some parts have been kind of my breathing moments.being alone gives you the delight of enjoying everything at your own expense.

somebody came,enjoyed it,but after few months,the past came again.my sis was hospitalized,so i had no choice but to bring her to the nearest hospital emergency room.he's there.and another spark was born.

i want to kick myself,say "hey,you're so like out of everything,you have already been hurt ,and here you go again."

i have been so lonely and alone the past chapters of my life.he came,i lost him,then he came again.

and still i don't know what to decide...

i had near-cries just last night.i saw the pics,the most dreaded moment that i don't want to see,but i wanted to stop the feeling of what if's.so i decided to search at facebook.saw them,having their own separate accounts.my heart beat the fastest way ever.i perspired,but no tears flowed.maybe the tears dried up inside and had nothing to come out.

and now that he is back,this another "beau"is constantly present.

i felt the different feeling that i felt for him the last quarter of 2008.

huh!

the heiress in me...

i consider myself an heiress eversince,never mind the special treatment.i just believe that i must love myslef so that others will love me more.this blogging thingy is never new to me.i blogged at friendster,facebook and multiply,so i told myself why not give it a try.

i've been to several up's and down's but the good thing here is,since i consider myself an heiress,everything still seems to be bright and shiny when i wake up everyday.i don't mind the tears anymore,i pray nd these prayers makes me humble and makes me complete though many trials have come along.they tried to put me down,but unluckily thet never won.i may have cried a barrel of tears,but the tears that i've cried are equivalents of triumphs.

i take pictures of myself always,and i love taking pictures of other people too.

obviously you can see thes pics on my future posts...